Well That Failed...

My ninja mission to start sewing more failed. I made one dress then forgot about everything. I also didn't realize that the dress would be too short while I was making it. Oh well, it was made out of a mens dress shirt that I got from Value Village anyway.

But I did decide that I'm going to go back to school. I'm not sure which school yet, but I'm going to go into cosmetology. I've always wanted to be a fashion designer, but it seems more like a pipe dream than a realistic one. Everywhere you go there are salons, though. There's always a need for a hair stylist.

I need to wait a little while, though. I have a 5 month old daughter, and her father works during the days. That gives me a little bit of a problem in going to school. I'm going to wait until she's either in daycare, or school, and I'm going to get a job. I'll save up so I don't need a very big student loan, and by that time she'll be in school with pretty much the same hours as me.

I'm excited, I want it to happen now :3

Lazy Girl

I have absolutely no motivation.

I get up, have a smoke and take care of my daughter. While she's asleep, I'm either on the computer, watching TV or playing on my iPod Touch.

For as long as I can remember I've wanted to be a fashion designer. I have mounds of fabric, endless strands of thread, 2 sewing machines and a serger, and you know how many articles of clothing I've finished? None. I've made a few wrist bands, a purse out of old t-shirts, half a vest, half a shirt, and I've altered a shirt. That's it.

How does everyone else have so much energy? Inspiration? Time?

A few years ago, at Christmas, I got a digital sewing machine. I squealed so loud that the windows almost shattered. A few days later, the excitement was gone. I think it's all because of how hard it is to get into the fashion industry. I'm letting all my doubts keep me from doing what I love. When I think about designing, right away a doubt pops into my head.

"Why do it? You'll never have your own line. You probably won't even have your own store... Why bother?"

I need that kick in the pants to get me going. I have so many ideas floating around in my head, I can't stand it. Every day I think about patterns, fabric, stitching, hemming. So I've decided...

I'm going to spend at least 5 hours a week sewing.

I'm going to make that Gir hoodie. I'm going to make that purple dress. And I'm going to make that damn sailor bathing suit! Fuck my doubts. Who cares if I don't end up doing fashion design as a career? That doesn't mean I can't do it for fun. I tend to have ideas for myself anyway, so doing it as a hobby is perfect.

I'm done doubting. I'm done putting myself down. Now where are my scissors...

Auto-Tune and Other Fails in Music.

Dear Andy Hildebrand,

You have killed the music industry. It used to take talent and drive to make it in the music industry. Now all you really need is some good looks and Auto-Tune.

The purpose of Auto-Tune, as defined by Wikipedia is:

"Auto-Tune uses a phase vocoder to correct pitch in vocal and instrumental performances. It is used to disguise off-key inaccuracies and mistakes, and has allowed singers to perform perfectly tuned vocal tracks without the need of singing in tune."

I'm all for using it in a few places here and there if you can't get the pitch perfect, but it's being overused so some scantily clad girls and so-called sexy men with a terrible case of Tone-Deafititis can make an album and get famous.


Speaking of tone deaf, is there anyone out there that actually likes Akon? I sure hope not. When I first heard his single "Locked Up" I thought The Chipmunks were making a come-back album.

Now, I'm obviously not any kind of music expert (or an expert on anything, really), but the shit that's out today makes me lose all faith in today's youth.

AOL Radio Blog has 'Whatcha Say' by Jason Derulo as number ten in their top 10 of 2009. A song that hardly had anything changed from the one it was sampled from. I feel terrible for Imogen Heap. They're so great, they don't deserve this slaughter of their music.

I don't understand all of these songs with intentionally terrible English. "In The Ayer", "Thnks fr the Mmrs", "Buy U a Drank", etc. I wish these people would learn some basic English before even thinking of naming anything. Now, I don't mind some mistakes. I'm not the best with grammar, myself, but when you're putting yourself out in the public eye and using ridiculous words like "ayer" and removing every vowel, you should be slapped. All the kids growing up watching these assholes are going to end up needing speech therapy.

I guess what I'm trying to say is... Don't become a singer if you can't sing, and don't shit all over the English language.

HolyCrapMyFirstPost

I've been thinking for the past few days about what I would write about if I had a blog. I couldn't think of any clever, catchy topics, so I decided that I'm going to write my opinion on whatever comes to mind.

This time it's going to be about Massively Multiplayer Online Role-playing Games (or MMORPGs).

I'm a massive RPG fan, but when it comes to MMOs I'm a little hesitant. I've recently started playing the free MMORPG 'Ether Saga Online'. Pretty good quality for a free game. I love the fact that you have a pet with you that you can train, and feed, and (s)he helps you in battles. It's pretty neat. On the down side, nothing in the game makes a first attack. You don't have any worry while walking through an open field of ferocious monsters. The leveling up is a little slow, but if you have patience it's pretty fun. A bonus (or down side, depending on how you want to look at it) to this game is that most of the monsters are cute. I take pride in slashing little fluffy bunnies heads off sometimes.

MMORPGs in general bore me, though. I like doing the quests, and having such a large area to roam around in is cool, but I hate group quests and raids. I'm more of a solo-gamer. With group raids/quests you basically do one job every time. This person is a healer, this person uses magic attacks, etc. It's not that much fun to do one specific task until the enemy is dead. I like to multi-task. I need a challenge. I need more than to repeatedly click an enemy then go pick up some gold and low-level armor.

I don't understand all the WoW addicts out there that blow off real life so they aren't late for a raid. That's why I like regular RPGs, YOU chose when you want to do these things. You're not bound to your computer/console waiting for 6:45 to come, praying you make it to the meeting spot on time so some douche bag teenager with a holier-than-thou attitude because he got some purples, doesn't kick you out of the party. There is so much more stress involved when it's an MMO.

I play games because I want to play a game. Not because I have to.