Lazy Girl

I have absolutely no motivation.

I get up, have a smoke and take care of my daughter. While she's asleep, I'm either on the computer, watching TV or playing on my iPod Touch.

For as long as I can remember I've wanted to be a fashion designer. I have mounds of fabric, endless strands of thread, 2 sewing machines and a serger, and you know how many articles of clothing I've finished? None. I've made a few wrist bands, a purse out of old t-shirts, half a vest, half a shirt, and I've altered a shirt. That's it.

How does everyone else have so much energy? Inspiration? Time?

A few years ago, at Christmas, I got a digital sewing machine. I squealed so loud that the windows almost shattered. A few days later, the excitement was gone. I think it's all because of how hard it is to get into the fashion industry. I'm letting all my doubts keep me from doing what I love. When I think about designing, right away a doubt pops into my head.

"Why do it? You'll never have your own line. You probably won't even have your own store... Why bother?"

I need that kick in the pants to get me going. I have so many ideas floating around in my head, I can't stand it. Every day I think about patterns, fabric, stitching, hemming. So I've decided...

I'm going to spend at least 5 hours a week sewing.

I'm going to make that Gir hoodie. I'm going to make that purple dress. And I'm going to make that damn sailor bathing suit! Fuck my doubts. Who cares if I don't end up doing fashion design as a career? That doesn't mean I can't do it for fun. I tend to have ideas for myself anyway, so doing it as a hobby is perfect.

I'm done doubting. I'm done putting myself down. Now where are my scissors...

Auto-Tune and Other Fails in Music.

Dear Andy Hildebrand,

You have killed the music industry. It used to take talent and drive to make it in the music industry. Now all you really need is some good looks and Auto-Tune.

The purpose of Auto-Tune, as defined by Wikipedia is:

"Auto-Tune uses a phase vocoder to correct pitch in vocal and instrumental performances. It is used to disguise off-key inaccuracies and mistakes, and has allowed singers to perform perfectly tuned vocal tracks without the need of singing in tune."

I'm all for using it in a few places here and there if you can't get the pitch perfect, but it's being overused so some scantily clad girls and so-called sexy men with a terrible case of Tone-Deafititis can make an album and get famous.


Speaking of tone deaf, is there anyone out there that actually likes Akon? I sure hope not. When I first heard his single "Locked Up" I thought The Chipmunks were making a come-back album.

Now, I'm obviously not any kind of music expert (or an expert on anything, really), but the shit that's out today makes me lose all faith in today's youth.

AOL Radio Blog has 'Whatcha Say' by Jason Derulo as number ten in their top 10 of 2009. A song that hardly had anything changed from the one it was sampled from. I feel terrible for Imogen Heap. They're so great, they don't deserve this slaughter of their music.

I don't understand all of these songs with intentionally terrible English. "In The Ayer", "Thnks fr the Mmrs", "Buy U a Drank", etc. I wish these people would learn some basic English before even thinking of naming anything. Now, I don't mind some mistakes. I'm not the best with grammar, myself, but when you're putting yourself out in the public eye and using ridiculous words like "ayer" and removing every vowel, you should be slapped. All the kids growing up watching these assholes are going to end up needing speech therapy.

I guess what I'm trying to say is... Don't become a singer if you can't sing, and don't shit all over the English language.